My nightmare is real life pain

So it's finally been done.My Edward broke up with me last night.It happened in such a fast motion it was like a blur.No i take it back it wasn't like a blur.It WAS a blur.I couldn't say what I really thought about what he was saying at the moment cause I had became so numb at the moment the only thing that took me from the pain and numbness was the tears that were falling from my cheeks.I didn't go to bed last night until 4:53am to frightened I might dream of him.and w hen i did go to sleep.I did dream of him.So now I wonder to myself "was it something I said or did.I cried so hard last night I may even be ashamed of myself...But I've given it thought and I'm not going to have another boyfriend for a long time.probably not until I'm 16...

~Isabella~