Hurting life,Painful reminder

I feel so depressed today.Like my whole world is crashing down upon me.I want to cry but I promised someone I wouldn't...But it's so hard to say goodbye to everyone I knew...I hate goodbyes.I'm moving way to fast to even stop and smell the flowers...sad thing is there are no flowers to smell...they've all died along with my fun and possibly happy world of free minded hope.it's not like me to show my feelings but this one hurts.I know your all probably thinking"Oh she'll get over it."...But I can't.I have nothing more to do and there's no point in checking my email anymore or even blogging.sorry if all this sounds pretty lame but I just feel so depressed...Sorry if I brought down anyone's mood